About

Update: migrated the website from Ghost to Publii andthen to Hugo. This version is running on WordPress. I don’t like this, but it’s the easiest way to include comments without including a third party comment platform. Self-hosted comment systems have proven to be too instable and hard to setup/maintain.

About me
I’m (at the moment of this writing) 58 59 years old person from Germany. I was assigned male at birth (amab for short) and I’m transgender hyperromantic pan nonbinary Femme. Oooff, that’s a lot of jargon for one sentence. Let’s decode:

• transgender: My identity is not congruent with my assigned gender at birth. I explicitly don’t use the phrase “I identify as” because it’s not about a declaration but about facts.
• hyperromantic: This means when I’m attracted to someone I have very strong romantic feelings.
• pan: I don’t care for someone’s private parts in the first place, when I’m attracted to someone.
• nonbinary: I’m neither male nor female. Gender is not a linear spectrum but sort of a landscape. So I’m not “somewhere in the middle between male and female” but just different. Also I don’t put a dash in between non and binary because this would confirm that there actually is something like a gender binary.
• Femme: This is a term also quite new to me. It means that my gender expression (how I like to look like using clothes, hair, nail polish, makeup etc.) leans quite a lot to the female side. So why do I not just say I’m a trans* woman? Would be much easier, right? Nope. Because I don’t feel like a woman. Maybe it’s a form of imposter syndrome (“I never will achieve this goal …”), maybe something else. I’ll work this out over time I guess … But for short you also can say Femme. The capital F means, this is a very strong feeling for me.